I felt like I was dying (this week!!)

Hello lovely!!

Oh what a week this has been!

I had to totally let go in a way I haven’t done since starting the coaching certification program 3 years ago and especially not since starting my business 2 years ago.

No one could tell me to let go like this in that time!

My own mind couldn’t!!

But…

 

Our bodies can really kick our arses in a way that nothing and no one else can.

When you won’t listen to the quiet voice, the warning of others and your own inner pleading, your body will make you stop.

Really stop.

That’s what happened to me this week.

For the first time in three years I stopped well and truly.

And what I realized is that having a business you love (or doing any kind of work or creative pursuit you are passionate about) is quite an addiction.

That kind of stubbornness to keep going no matter the health issues or relationship problems was something I didn’t quite grasp until I read it this week in this article called The Dark Side of Being an Entrepreneur.

I had plenty of time to reflect on all the times I’ve prioritized my creative pursuits and my work during the week. I’ve been suffering from excruciating headaches and migraines, plus extreme light and sound sensitivity.

I couldn’t look at screens!!

Oh but I tried to sneak back on as soon as I started feeling better.

But then I would feel worse than ever.

I could not work!!

As I lay there, dying (it felt like), I remembered all the times I’d overridden my health and other issues…

The time I was in hospital for the tumour removal and I decided to set myself the challenge to write a blog post everyday. (?!)

Signing up for the coaching academy the week I got out of the hospital.

Carrying on with my photo shoot after getting mugged in Paris (you can see the front of my pink dress is torn from my necklace being ripped from my neck). The photos from this day are all on the main header of my website.

Coaching and actually getting the paying clients (meaning, marketing) for the 70 hours to complete the certification in the weeks while my marriage was ending.

Vomiting 4 times at my last Healthy + Powerfully Feminine workshop, having to run out of the room while the women were meditating and then came back to speak on the Power of Celebration!

That was one of my favourite sessions.

Of course I’m telling you this because these are also some of my proudest moments.

Getting back up.

Carrying on.

Resilience.

Something we only know because of our challenges, because we stretch and force ourselves to grow.

I am priviledged to hear the personal stories of so many women and so I’m pretty positive that you would also be able to reflect right now on times when your spirit triumphed.

There’s also something very …hmm sometimes crazy sometimes awesome… about being a coach and having to process so efficiently.

We need support just as much as everyone does.

We also know the value of investing in that support.

But still, perhaps I should have given myself more breaks.

As I’ve said before, my challenge is to not intellectualize what I’m going through and get my lessons before I’ve properly felt it.

Then there are all the thousands of times I haven’t gotten up and taken breaks when I should have or when I was on social media doing “one last post for…” when I was meant to be relaxing.

But this week!!

It basically felt like glass was being smashed in my face any time I looked at a screen.

I couldn’t even google what I had!!

During the worst days, I had to rely mostly on my boyfriend and then on his family to look after me.

I mostly just lay there, sometimes feeling ok and other times even being still I’d get stabbing pains in my head.

I think that after getting so frustrated about wanting my ebook How to Be Queen of your Love Life out on time (according to the deadline I’d given myself and no one else actually knew or probably gave a shit about), some optical nerves were affected.

I may have a condition called Optical Neuralgia. I still need to avoid screens as much as I can and get it checked out and treated by a specialist.

This week I went to a GP, massage, saw an Occupational therapist (who said it was from my laptop and mostly from my neck) and then finally got to the acupuncturist and had that treatment and cupping done as well as Chinese massage.

From him I learnt that it was to do with my liver as well. Anger and frustration are stored in the liver according to TCM.

So I needed to cool the liver with hot water and lemon. The major work he did on me with the cupping and acupuncture.

Traditional Chinese Medicine is something I’d love to study, take a great interest in and have experienced lots of positive effects over the years.

Because I’d been waking around 3am every night, this indicates issues with the liver.

What I love so much though about TCM is that I believe half the healing is actually having someone care for you and take a deep interest in you holistically, backed up by the specialists knowledge of how the body, emotions, dreams, food and the seasons are connected.

This care and holistic approach is what is so healing about coaching as well.

In the last session of the Healthy + Powerfully Feminine Online Program, I asked that each of us would experience something amazing, a miracle, in the next 24 hours.

I have heard some amazing stories too!!

My miracle was that I finally learnt to let go of my business and I learnt once again that my health is way more important than everything else.

After 8 days of headaches I finally came home and allowed myself to totally rest.

With no plans to sneak in 5 minutes of work if I felt better.

I simply sat in my bed, listened to the wind and rain and wrote in my journal.

With the thought, “Just be here now.”

Just. Be. Here. Now.

You don’t have to do anything.

Do you know what happened then?

The headaches went!!

Clear.

The next day I got back to work.

Delicately.

I wrote this Museletter to you.

Then I hopped back on IG and FB.

And do you know what happened then?

It came back different from before!!

Worse!!

So I will be taking a break as much as I can from social media until I’ve seen the specialist.

As much as I can.

Very much.

(It’s quite hard when I feel better)

I have so much reverence for my body right now.

As I write this my hands are shaking and reflecting on this, I’m suddenly crying.

In complete awe of this amazing creature

If only we all knew what miracles our bodies are.

You don’t need to go on a diet.

You are not a one size fits all body.

You are a unique masterpiece.

An intelligence so magnificent.

Please know that.

I hope that one day, if you haven’t already, you get to experience the complete love and respect I have for the human body, for my body.

I’m sitting here with my dorky glasses on at my laptop shaking and crying and writing.

And yes it is the first day of my period and that makes it even more special.

Because once I write this to you I’m going to take the rest of the day off.

Do not ignore your body, beautiful one.

Because she’s a fierce goddess warrior.

The feistiest one.

Love your body and she’ll love you back.

He’ll love you back.

This is the absolute truth.

I know it because I’m shaking so hard.

Adorn her because she’s graceful.

Worship her because she is the House of the Divine.

Your Spirit. Your Love.

And if you’re having any of those “nice for some” thoughts, know that it is because it is meant for you.

It’s only the Inner Critic, the Ego, the Judge. That’s all.

In that quiet moment all alone, miraculously, in an instant, my body healed.

Then when I tried to jump back in she kicked my arse again.

Powerful creature.

Next time I’ll write about all the amazing things I’m learning, have learnt and am now applying when it comes to relationships and love.

In the meantime you can receive your free copy of the ebook : www.mireilleparker.com/love-queen

I’m feeling so grateful right now!!

I am grateful for my parents’ love and care – even from overseas they knew something was up because of my lack of social media posting.

I am grateful for friends and children and boyfriends and husbands and family who take care of those who are unwell.

I am grateful for pharmaceutical drugs to relieve symptoms fast (I’d never normally say that!!) and for holistic and alternative treatments and health care.

I am grateful for Graham’s patience with me because I know I am not an easy patient.

I am grateful for the staff at the coffee shop and how amazing it feels to come back here and be almost normal again (now with my rose coloured glasses and abundant tears).

I am grateful to be able to write again.

And of course I am grateful for the miraculous creature that is my body, your body, and I am grateful for the platform I have to share this love and this message with you.

Wishing you the most magnificent week!!

Hope you are really really well!!

Let me know, write back, what are you grateful for? And what challenges are you facing?

 

Wishing you the most magnificent week!!

From my wild and powerful heart to yours,
Mireille xxx

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Hi I’m Mireille! I’m a Divine Living certified coach. I help women to not only create a life they love, but also to release unhelpful habits and compulsions, remove the blocks to success and be the woman capable of receiving her desires.

Many of the women drawn to work with me have been through a major transition – like motherhood, loss of a parent or a relationship break up – and are tired of struggling, feeling overwhelmed, drowning under to-do lists and responsibilities and lacking real joy and satisfaction.

My Healthy and Powerfully Feminine in-person course and online private coaching program assists women to know their authentic power and gives them the tools and techniques to create real and lasting change.

I am so passionate about helping women to create a life they’re wild about because I know the effect it can have on our spirit and health when we keep ignoring our true desires.

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