“Sometimes you’re not ready for what you want so you get the letting in process rather than what you want.”
~ Abraham Hicks
Phillipe was my letting in process. When Paula said I had the relationship “stars” of a prostitute, “men will always come to you for healing”, I could believe it. I had to select two Norse runes from a bag and I pulled out Transformation (Sowillo) and Loneliness. This was a time of great loneliness stimulating great transformation. It felt good to have someone say it. Only then did I really realise it. I was often around people but wherever I went, I was a coach and couldn’t be completely myself.
I didn’t feel connected to people socially and had not much of a social life but probably no one realised because of how much I posted online for my business. I was happy in those moments too and my work gave me so much pleasure. But entangled as I was between work and private life, the loneliness was too deep for even me to see. I had always craved my alone time in relationship and wondered why I had not been able to enjoy it since I returned home. That afternoon after the reading though, I walked to the beach and back and felt the loneliness deep in my belly until it became aloneness and I was no longer afraid to look.
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